Fibromyalgia Awareness Day!

Knocked back down

It has been quite awhile since I had a fibro flare.  I have days I hurt and days I am exhausted.  But it has been quite a while since I couldn't function.  But today.... Was a flare day.

Milly has had a rough few nights lately.  I have learned to take her crazy tantrums into stride.  I just sit and try to find that trigger that brings my adorable little girl back.  She has been trying to keep up with the big kids.  She thinks she is missing out on great fun in the middle of the night.  Her daddy is working crazy hours and is stressed.  And mommy is trying to deal with life.  We are less than three months away from end of assignment. Do we have a new plan? no.  Hell, we can't even get reimbursed for all the money we have spent on this damn move.  As much as we love Spain, it has been a PIA.

Today, I woke up and felt numb.  And not in a good way.  My mind could barely focus to speak.  I was exhausted.  I took Jocy to the bus stop and before I even left my street, I knew I probably shouldn't be driving.  I didn't miss my meds, so what was going on?  As I was sitting waiting on the bus, struggling to stay awake, it hit me.  Crap... It's a flare up.  I can't say things have been great but I am been make some improvement.  I must have gotten too comfortable because BAM... I am done.  I got home and told Jackie she would have to take care of school this morning.  I went back to bed about 8:30am.  I didn't get up again til 2pm.  I had lunch and tried to function but was back in bed 45 minutes later. Then there was the monumental effort to drag myself out of bed to do pickup.

Here we are at 10:30 at night, and I am ready for bed again.  I feel better but not good.  Thank goodness my wonderful hubby allowed me to have a summer nanny.  She was a lifesaver today.

I am trying to put up a good fight.  But days like today really knock the crap out of you.  I really hate being the person blaming fibro, but here I am.  And I would give anything not to feel this way.  But I will take one day at a time and keep fighting.

The sun shines bright....

on my old Kentucky Home.  Another year, another Derby missed.  For as long as I can remember, I have watched the Derby.  My freshman year of college, I was moving out of my dorm room.  I had everything loaded in my car but my TV.  I NEVER missed the Derby.  I signed up for the Horse Racing channel just to watch when we moved to Detroit. Then we moved to Istanbul.  

The pride of the Kentucky Derby is instilled in you from a young age.  And it never leaves.  It has been 13 years since I left Louisville.  But just hearing the beginning of "My Old Kentucky Home", will still bring a tear to my eye.  This will be my 4th Derby that I have missed.  I guess I could stay up late and watch it online. But it is just not the same.

So Happy Derby Day to everyone!  If you have never been to the KY Derby, put it on your bucket list!  The sun, the hats, the exhilaration yelling at your horse to move it over a $2 bet, the mint juleps and the new best friends you will make is what makes the Kentucky Derby one of the best times in your life. Go Baby go!